Title: We Don't Say Goodbye
Author: Vesper (Regina)
Warnings: none
Category: Vignette
Keywords: MSR
Spoilers: Amor Fati II: The Sixth Extinction and Nothing
Important Happened Today.
Summary: Inspired by "Immortality" sung by Celine Dion. Mulder
and Scully each think of the hope for the future and the
sacrifices they've made.
Disclaimer: "The X-Files" belong to Chris Carter and 20th Century
Fox. No profit is made from this story.
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Some might say I'm running. I'm not. I have become a prophet,
warning of the impending apocalypse. Those who understand
believe me. No longer is this a search for one girl, but a fight
for our survival. This quest has become larger than we ever
could have imagined. And I never thought it would require me to
leave the only two people I would never have, if I had a choice,
behind.

Leaving Scully and William was the hardest thing I've ever done.
They're safer this way though. And I know they're in good hands
with Doggett and Reyes. They would fight tooth and nail to
protect her, they've proven that. They've seen the truth and are
prepared to withstand the coming battle.

I have never said goodbye to her. That word has never come
between us. She knows how much I love her and our son. It is
for their sake I follow this road. I keep the memory of them
inside me and when I begin to doubt it is the spark that keeps
the fire burning.

She made me promise before I left. So I did.

'I won't let my heart control my head.'

I take her with me, her steadiness, her diamond strength. She's
brought me balance and wisdom and even though around me the storm
darkens my path, and the wind seeks to tear me apart, the promise
I keep will make the path in front of me straight. And when that
fails me, I draw upon the vision.

I've never told Scully about the dreams I had while catatonic.
They've continued, and I've come to realize they are visions of
our destiny. The boy was my son. I can only pray that he will
understand why his father cannot be with him, and when the time
comes, that I will be able to explain to him who he is, what he
is.

He is our salvation, the product of two immune parents. He is a
gift, a miracle. He is an extraordinary boy, who must be raised
ordinary. He is humankind's immortality and through him and her
I have found my own.

All I know is that I must continue long enough to see him again.
To see Scully again, to reassure her that there will be time,
time for us to spend together, to talk about the things we never
did, time to grow old with no fear, time to show our love, to
never have to say goodbye.

End.

*

He is not running. No matter what John Doggett thinks Mulder has
not abandoned me. Agent Doggett may be a solid man, a good
friend, and loyal to the end, but he will never understand what
Mulder and I share. I know Mulder has entrusted me to him, my
son and I, and it is he that I will depend on in the next few
years.

I never thought that I would be able to let Mulder go. I always
thought I would be the first to leave, but now I never would.
When Mulder was gone I admitted to myself how much I needed him.

I still need him, but he has a journey he must take, a mission he
must see through. It's not possible for me to go with him, but I
know he keeps my memory.

When the time comes, we will be together, free to live
peacefully, free to raise our son and watch him grow. I am
hopeful of the future. All I have to do is look at the face of
my newborn and I know that he will live to see it.

He is the result of love, and that is what I will tell him when
he is older. I can see him already, tall, distinguished, all the
better parts of Mulder and I combined in him. He will have his
father's tenacity and passion, and he will have his father.

I made him promise to keep himself safe, and I know that he will.
There is peace in Mulder's eyes now, but it is not complacent.
Instead it is has a fervency I have not noted in a long time, but
it is tempered with the knowledge that he cannot sacrifice
himself, even though I know he would, to keep us safe.

I love him, and those are the only words that matter now. In the
years of silence they lay between us, an unacknowledged strength,
but with the saying comes more power than we ever knew, and it
will only grow stronger.

The time will come when we are safe from them.

I know it will.

End.

*

Immortality
Written by Barry Gibb, Robin Gibb, and Maurice Gibb
Performed by Celine Dion and The Bee Gees

So this is who I am,
And this is all I know,
And I must choose to live,
For all that I can give,
It's the spark that makes the power grow.

And I will stand for my dream if I can,
Symbol of my faith in who I am,
But you are my only.
And I must follow on the road that lies ahead,
And I won't let my heart control my head,
But you are my only.
We don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye,
And I know what I've got to be.

Immortality
I make my journey through eternity
I keep the memory of you and me inside

Fulfill your destiny,
It's there within the child,
My storm will never end,
My fate is on the wind,
The king of hearts, the joker's wild,
But we don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye.
I'll make them all remember me.

'Cause I have found a dream that must come true,
Every ounce of me must see it through,
But you are my only.
I'm sorry I don't have a role for love to play,
Hand over my heart I'll find my way,
I will make them give to me

Immortality.
There is a vision and a fire in me.
I keep the memory of you and me, inside.
And we don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye,
With all my love for you
And what else we may do,
We don't say goodbye.